best friends?

at 09/22/09 10:45PM
best friends bestfriend best friend best friend?

I've gotten reflective...again.
It used to be

best friends

changed all the time. Growing up I had a few best friends but grew out of them. Freshman year of college I had my boyfriend for a while and best friends. But then

all that changed

. Completely. People I thought were my best friends weren't. Some were liars, some I grew apart from, others moved away...The times changed. You know what I mean.
It's weird looking back...I can see who was really my friend and who wasn't. Once again I find myself going down the 'list' of best friends and crossing people out.
who are our best friends?? What IS a best friend?

Do I really have any? Can I really, truly, single out one person as a best friend? Above all my other friends?

Do you think you can be best friends with someone when they don't think you're their best friend?
Do you think you can be best friends with someone you've only met just recently,

or are you only truly best friends when you've been so for several years or through many trials??
Or *both?*

I have a lot of close friends. I guess.
But I feel like I'm missing something. Like a companionship or something.



If I had a boyfriend he'd be one of my best friends. I know, I know, I need to take my time.
I just want to love someone. forever & ever. I'm just waiting. Waaaaiting.
I've learned not to just write people off. Don't write me off. You might miss something you didn't notice before.






Will you be my best friend?
  • titansfan0827
    I could've written this myself.
    by titansfan0827 at 09/26/09 2:18AM

tease

at 07/20/09 4:55PM
update soon.

summertime is here

at 05/30/09 3:02PM
I'm staying busy these days at the Bluegrass Institute. Check out http://www.bipps.org . I help them build their wiki pages on http://www.freedomkentucky.org and do research. Looks like I also have an op-ed coming up.

I am on a rice diet now. I start to hit it hard next week, decided it would be good to start out with one meal of rice a day plus one regular meal and a sensible breakfast. Next week I'm going to do two meals of rice a day. I decided it was logical to still eat lowfat ice cream. I exercise 6 days out of the week, either jogging, walking, weights (8 lb dumbells) concentrating on all aspects of my body, and the 'bikini workout' that is on the fitness mag site. Really my goal is to lose the extra gut I've gained through high school. My legs and everything else seem to be ok, haha...ok no comment. I bought some Nike sneakers, Air and Zoom, at the factory store in Lebanon, Tenn. on Memorial Day. Well, Dad bought one pair, technically.

Got a job at Forever 21. Ironically, Charlotte Russe offered me a sales associate position two days later. Oh well. Ha.
I'm going to have an official schedule beginning next week. I'm thinking I won't normally work less than 15 hours or more than 25 or 30 because of the unpaid internship, yada yada.
I got a scholarship again, it should help pay for books. I think I'm going to feel rich this summer and fall. I got my Herald check the other day. Yeha.

I don't know what to tell you about the guys (or guy, or lack thereof, or the one who I like...blah). That's all I'm going to say. I'm open to anything for fun over the summer. That's all, I guess.

Oh yeah, I saw Star Trek. No movie is perfect, but I was impressed...I'd go see it again, actually.
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  • lionessofgod
    ha well sounds more fun than captain d's. I like my job though. been getting like 31 hours because I honestly have nothing else to do lol
    by lionessofgod at 05/30/09 10:56PM
  • lionessofgod
    true but believe me they don't smell so great before they're cooked lol
    by lionessofgod at 06/01/09 4:03PM
  • lionessofgod
    good how about you? excited about that job? :)
    by lionessofgod at 06/02/09 3:02PM
  • silly_nickel
    I saw Star Trek too...and loved it. Spock was the junk, dude.
    by silly_nickel at 06/04/09 2:39AM
  • silly_nickel
    Haha for real. It's like...I wouldn't mind being Ahura for a while. (That's probably nowhere near close to how you spell her name...but I'm too lazy to Google it.) There's something appealing about him not showing emotion very often.
    by silly_nickel at 06/05/09 1:16AM
  • titansfan0827
    Thanks!! :)
    by titansfan0827 at 06/09/09 6:50PM
  • dave
    small world! i stumbled on your page because you are in the NCAABasketball group that I'm trying to spruce up. amazingly you are part of another group that I was once a part of - the bluegrass institute! Tell Jim Waters hello from David McGee! That is so cool that you are interning there. I was in the very first group of interns about 5 or 6 years ago!
    by dave at 07/09/09 7:43PM

the winds of change blew my mind and replaced it with a fresh thought that became...

at 03/16/09 3:32PM
Hello remaining Pleonasters. Even just sitting here I'm rather impatient to get done typing. I know not many people comment anymore; that is what facebook notes are for. :) I have a website now: http://www.soubeliefs.com
I'd encourage you to check it out every week. I had to get my own domain name and everything since it is a requirement of those going through the journalism & broadcasting department at WKU. My major is still news-editorial journalism, and that is going well. It keeps me pretty busy. I've gotten some great clips writing for The College Heights Herald. You can pick up a copy anywhere on campus or near campus. Or, just look online at http://www.wkuherald.com and if you go into archives and search my name, Tabitha Waggoner, a load of stuff I've written will come up.
I like the print versions better, though. Actually, if you just google my name, a LOAD of stuff will come up. I've made it so that my myspace and Facebook pages don't come up during public searches, but I do realize that employers and such people can still find that stuff. Myspace is still the same, although I don't really use it. The music thingy is somewhat nifty now, but I still don't know if I like it better than how it was before.
We were going to go to Hot Springs, Arkansas for the SBC tourney over break but me and my brother (mainly me at first) got REALLY sick and after spending the night in Jackson, Tenn., we returned home.
The ignition switch on my car (it was hard enough when I got my car about two years ago to turn it on) finally bit the dust so I got a new one installed by Mr. Joe Wheeet out in Woodburn. Now I have several spare parts to my car in case anything else goes wrong..haha...oh. It was about 77 degrees one day and then the next day it was SNOWING. SNOWING! We got about four inches but when we woke up the next day around 12 (we had been up late) all the snow was melted, pretty much. Crazy.
But anyway, back on my car. I haven't really had many problems with the Sentra (I joke the '96 Nissan is my own Shadowfax) until this past week.
Here I am, driving away from Joe Wheet's, following my Dad, and my radio stops working. Then my windshield wipers start working (as it is 'pouring' down snow) then I start stalling, my horn stopped working...and so I rolled over into a lot and waited for Dad to notice and turn around. After a couple minutes he was back. Well, at first we thought it was just a fuse that had blown. We charged the battery back up and switched out a fuse. Then I started stalling again. It was awful. It kept dying, etc., and we realized the alternator had probably decided to go out. So stopping and starting we finally made it to Advanced Auto Parts on Scottsville Road. They basically confirmed it. Sooo I bought an alternator. At least I got some money back for the core, but I still had to pay Joe Wheet his money, AGAIN, in addition to the part. He fixed it and now it's good as new. I went and bought a new little fuse and a headlight for the passenger's side, because the fuse made the headlight blow out I think. Anyway, usually they don't install stuff for you but I went in there and asked if they could show me how to put a headlight in and the guy did it for me like they usually do. My Dad was like, "They never do that for me!"
It was rather funny. This morning I got ill again, yuchh so I skipped out of all my classes; my teachers understood since I emailed them all. I feel better now, though. In fact I think in a bit I'm going to troop up the road and see if my Herald check has come yet, because if it hasn't I've got to call the accounts payable people at WKU. I'm basically broke since I have to pay $65 for a chorus dress by Friday (we have a women's chorus concert at DUC on Friday at 12) and my other money is Dining Dollars--I have almost 100 of them left.
I think what I'm going to do is bring my lunch to school for a few weeks and not eat out until I make up half of the approximately $375 I've had to spend on my car. Thankfully I got paid for the stories I wrote for the Potter College Journal. When I get the link I'll put it up here.
I'm not selling the iTouch 2g, my laptop or my Nikon camera that I just paid off. I'll be able to get by, just barely.
I'm dropping my Theatre minor this week. I just feel like since both journalism and theatre are things you have to move around with to really advance, I need something stable I could stay at home with as well in case I don't just want to write. The theatre classes I'm in right now will count for liberal arts electives, thankfully.
I think I'm going to add Exercise Science as a second major. That means I could go into physical therapy, fitness, be a strength and conditioning coach, go into sports nutrition and plenty of other things like that. The only downside is I'll have to take human anatomy. Hahaha. I'm VERY happy that Alison Krauss & Robert Plant won best album, best song, etc etc with the Grammys! "Raising Sand" is such a great album. Augh.
"Slumdog Millionaire." Still haven't seen it, but apparently I need to. "Twilight" comes out on DVD this weekend, but with the money issues it looks like I'll be waiting on that one, but watching it with friends. I never went to see "Valkyrie" or "Defiance" but I plan on seeing them when they come out on DVD. Renting movies is something I used to be against, but it's cheap. So hey.
I've enjoyed hanging out with my friends and visiting the church at Bowling Green. Some of you all have had questions about what they do...I'd encourage you go visit or ask me. Don't just spread rumours around. I've never seen a perfect church yet, and I still go to Lost River.
I'm still single. I like someone but right now I don't think it's worth it for us to be in a relationship. We'd probably end up breaking up over the summer. Right now I'm trying to be content with what I have.
Which leads me to Lent. Yes, I do realize Lent is not necessary for salvation. I just wanted to challenge myself and see if I could go for specific times without certain things that I overindulge in or take for granted. So far, so good. This week I will begin to replace what I am 'missing' with additional other good things. I haven't been to Preston in over a week so I will return to the gym as well, hopefully very regularly again now that I have gotten homework and other stuff done early.
Well, that is definitely enough for now.


extra stuff:


The President:

Many people who did not support or vote for Obama in this past election are moaning and groaning and agonizing, 'what is going to happen to us?'
Come on, folks. Let's give him a chance. I for one know that I will disagree with some of his policies, but I am willing to pray for him and keep my fingers crossed for him. We NEED him to do a good job.
Everything happens for a reason. Evangelicals need not worry. President Obama is not going to turn everyone out of their churches or eliminate free speech. The end is probably not as near as certain people are making it out to be.
I'll support President Barack Obama as a leader, and I'll agree with him where I can. I'll disagree with him where I need to. But you're not going to see me rolling around in despair, thinking that the end of America has come.

The Cabinet:
In the article on the first page of yesterday's NY Times Business section "Up Next for Bankers: A Flogging" the author suggests that the executives of the large banks that accepted bailout money should be willing to explain how they are using taxpayer money. However on the same page, in "As New Course Set for Bailout, Calls for Clarity" the author suggests that such "transparency" could undermine the market's faith in any bank that admits they desperately need the money to shore up their balance sheets...discuss your philosophy towards this dichotomy. In essence, how should federal regulators balance the rights of the public's "need to know" how taxpayer money is being spent relative to the privacy of private banking institutions in a market environment. This is important not only to the disposition of the remaining $350 billion in the initial TARP plan but also to the additional $1 trillion that will be injected into the banking system over the next year or two.




While I believe that you should always tell the truth (or not say anything at all, if the truth is not called for) I understand the plight the banks are in. I am hesitant to say that they need to tell us themselves whether or not they are weak banks. I think that we can figure that out on our own, if we really are smart taxpayers.
However, it is our money that they are using, so I feel that if they are on the verge of shutdown, they should notify us. In return, we should try to save the bank--if and only if it is worthy of saving.
I hate how people panic; but let's face it, most banks are not in the greatest shape right now.
BUT we do have to trust the banks as much as we can allow ourselves to--once we have given them our money, we must believe they can take care of it.
If they don't, they certainly won't be bailed out again--I hope.
Otherwise, take your money out of the bank and keep it in the crawlspace of your house until you're ready to use it. It was your choice to hand your money over to someone who may or may not care about it as much as you do.
It's kind of like borrowing a car--if you let someone borrow your car, do you WANT to know about the three close calls they had? One with a semi, one with a brand new Porsche--oh, and the fact that they almost ran a red light in front of a cop? Or would you prefer to just know that they returned it safely to you in better condition than you lent it to them? (They went to the car wash to say thank you.)
The choice is always yours.



GO TOPS! BEAT THE ILLINI!
  • titansfan0827
    That is RIGHT!!! :D GO TOPS!!!
    by titansfan0827 at 03/21/09 3:00AM
  • lionessofgod
    me neither lol. I'm good. you?
    by lionessofgod at 03/21/09 5:51PM
  • bibbit18
    Im going to western next year.
    by bibbit18 at 03/22/09 12:29AM
  • sherbear
    NO worries! I am coming back!!! as soon as I can! 46 days to be exact! And I am being good believe it or not!
    by sherbear at 03/23/09 1:52PM
  • darrenbob
    that kind of depends on what youre thinking right??
    by darrenbob at 03/24/09 4:48AM
  • darrenbob
    well i dont know about that, guess it would depend who you asked.
    by darrenbob at 03/26/09 4:31PM
  • darrenbob
    eh, i'm ok. bored mostly. maybe thinking I shouldn't have moved back home, oh well. how's your year going?
    by darrenbob at 03/27/09 10:14PM
  • darrenbob
    eh don't think so. Heard a lot of things have changed there and I know a ton of people that I knew no longer live in the area. I'm thinking warmer climate anyways.
    by darrenbob at 03/30/09 1:20AM
  • naturesensei
    I had a party!
    by naturesensei at 04/15/09 3:03PM
  • silly_nickel
    Lol yeah well, you have a built-in tan! Unfair advantage! Haha.:)
    by silly_nickel at 05/23/09 12:17AM
  • silly_nickel
    Haha this is true...but in the engagement picture, I had been going to the tanning bed almost daily for over a month! How sad is that?!?
    by silly_nickel at 05/29/09 12:34AM

no. yes. no. yes. no. NO!

at 01/12/09 5:13PM
I have decisions ahead of me, ones I can predict and ones I can't.
I'm not stupid. I have been getting the feeling that some people think I am.
I have even begun to wonder if I'm stupid. I think I'm having some kind of issue...well.
It's not like I have nightmares, but I have dreams that aren't leaving me with good feelings. Too much like real life. I'm starting this year off fresh, that's for sure.
Am I too easy? about everything? No. I don't think so. But maybe I am. whatever.
I'm not ready for a lot of things. My decision making skills have gone awry, and I used to pride myself on my decision making skills.
I used to trust most everyone or give them benefit of the doubt as soon as I met them...now I find myself questioning people or just feeling generally suspicious.
Not that I don't have a good reason. but really.
Okay, so I think I have realized I could be a potentially jealous person. Just throwing that out there.
I want to meet new people and make new alliances, but I don't completely want to throw out the old.
NOTHING ever seems to happen just how I would like it. Something always gets twisted around.
The truth is I think for my own sanity I need a change. Or I need to change my mind. The problem is, the things I NEED to change my mind about are the things that I am most stubborn not to change my mind on. The things that could be the easiest decisions are among the things I can't decide.
How in the world do I know what I'm doing, or what anyone else is?
No one's even going to read this. I don't even know why I'm wasting my time.
  • sherbear
    hey, this is that same message from facebook, cheater!!! lol
    by sherbear at 01/13/09 3:40PM
  • silver_sparrow
    tabitha, tabitha, tabitha.
    by silver_sparrow at 03/03/09 4:55PM
  • silver_sparrow
    SUN BELT TOURNY!!! YESSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!! IN 4 DAYSSSSS!!!!!!!
    by silver_sparrow at 03/03/09 4:56PM
  • kytar_heel
    haven't seen you around much. your message up there sounds a little confused. you having a good semester?
    by kytar_heel at 03/13/09 10:23PM