http://www.pleonast.com/user/squirt17 recent pleonast.com entries by user squirt17 en-us http://www.pleonast.com/user/squirt17?l=5&entryID=598705 Well, It's been awhile since I last updated, but with going to school and working two jobs...it doesn't really allow for a lot of time to do a lot of updating and such. However, this past weekend was unbelieveable! 1000 voices was truly wonderful...as it is every year. But just sitting there with Christians who are of like mind and singing as unto the Lord...all I can say is WOW! Jeff truly outdid himself, and I must say a special thanks to him. It truly was a wonderful and truly spiritual weekend. Another thing that has been on my mind these past few days...Doing everything as unto the Lord. It seems like something so small, but it truly is a huge thing to incorporate into your life everyday. I can remember when I was working in the hospital that even in making the beds...which was no easy or fun task...that I was doing it as unto the Lord. It is truly a struggle for me to remember and maintain that concept in everyday of my life. But the thing is...it's not a request, ... 2008-11-12 http://www.pleonast.com/user/squirt17?l=5&entryID=561076 Do you ever get that way? Where you're mind is just completely blank? It's wierd. I have so many things that are happening and going on, and yet, it's blank. School, a wedding, and a ladies retreat are all coming up, but yet, my mind isn't consumed with those things. Instead, it's consumed with thoughts of happiness and finding the best path to take. Figuring out what will happen in the next 2 years. It's wierd...my life is so different than what I thought it would be 3 years ago. Granted, at the time I was a scared freshman who didn't know anything. The funny thing is...now I'm a senior in college, a year and a half away from graduating, and I still don't know anything. I wonder sometimes if God intends that to happen to us. If he knows that the things that we want to think about or should think about...he just won't let us go there. Life is wierd. And I know supposed to be that way, but it is. How things change, why they change, and when will they again. I guess all ... 2008-08-10 http://www.pleonast.com/user/squirt17?l=5&entryID=488194 As per my usual, I have certain thoughts that have been collecting in my brain over the past several weeks, and I figured that it was high time to let them out. Mainly, why do we question God? Why do we wonder if he knows what he's doing? I mean, look around at all the things he's done, is doing, and certainly will do, and even looking at all of that, we still question him. The creator of the universe, and yet, we deam it necessary to question our Lord. I can never understand why I do it, let alone, the rest of the world. And yet, I still do it. In my search for things that I wanted in my life, I questioned not only the Lord's authority but his timing and his reasoning behind what he was doing. Now, even though my search for the things that I wanted in my life haven't always come to fruition, I still just don't understand how we, as human beings and as thoughtless as we are, how can we question what the Lord does? Even the bad things, I ask him why I have to go through it, kno... 2008-02-04 http://www.pleonast.com/user/squirt17?l=5&entryID=471306 Lately, I've been thinking about this year in review. Many positive things have occurred, as well as, several negative things. I've been reflecting a lot on the negatives. In fact, I seem to be drawing my courage and strength from those negative things these days. I have come to a realization, especially in the past few weeks, that I would much rather go through a million negative and hard things than one positive easy thing. I think I've said this in several posts before, but I think I am who I am today due to the fact that I have gone through many difficult things in my short life. But I've also come to the realization that getting through those negative things wouldn't have been possible without God by my side. For so many years, he's honestly been my best friend. I could tell him anything, and still do so much because of him. However, I've noticed that when things do become difficult, I tend to draw away from him. Not from a lack of knowing that he can handle anything, ... 2007-12-20 http://www.pleonast.com/user/squirt17?l=5&entryID=435393 Ok, Well, I figured it was time for a new entry! Life since nursing school...well, that officially ended the first day of classes. We have at least one to three tests each week, usually covering about six chapter a piece. Everyone had told me to prepare myself...and they definitely weren't kidding. I think nursing school by far is one of the hardest things physical struggles and mental struggles I've ever gone through. The question that seems to keep rolling over in my mind is, "Can I do this?". Can I really get through and become the nurse that I want to be? I pray and pray, and even with praying I still doubt myself. I think that's probably true for everyone, but I don't know, it seems to just be a constant battle to just get through. It's funny, I'll look at my calendar and think oh it's going to get better, and then I have to slap myself and realize that this is just the beginning. I keep thinking that maybe tomorrow will be the last day of school, and then I ... 2007-09-21 http://www.pleonast.com/user/squirt17?l=5&entryID=403035 Ok, So this is huge news that I just couldn't keep to myself! After two long years of working on my prerequisites, I am now officially a real bonified NURSING STUDENT! I got my letter of acceptance today, telling me that I will be starting nursing school in the fall! I really couldn't contain myself! I just had to tell you all! One of these days, I will be taking care of patients, which I just cannot wait for that to happen! God has blessed me exceedingly, abundantly above! I would not have been here without him! And of course everyone who has supported me! I just wanted to tell you all! I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! 2007-07-06 http://www.pleonast.com/user/squirt17?l=5&entryID=393186 Well It's about that time again! Sorry I have been so remiss in updating...but with going to school everyday during this summer, and working 40 hours a week, my time has not lent itself to updating my blog. But anyway, not to get off subject, but working in a hospital can really show you so many things, things you would never expect to see...good, bad, upsetting, really wonderful happy things, they all just seem to blend together sometimes. The thing is, I get so caught up in my job, that when things get really bad, I forget God. He's right there, and yet, I forget that he's standing beside me, watching me, and helping me. I was telling some of my co-workers the other night at work, during a bible study, that whenever I have a bad day, or if something just isn't right, I always remember that whatever I'm doing, I'm doing for the Lord. He does so much for us, I think that we should all be able to remember that our lives are for the Lord. He is above and beyond all. I think of El... 2007-06-12