I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands.
I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.
Praise be to you, O LORD; teach me your decrees.
Today starts the first full week of classes for this semester. I had one day each of classes last week, and got a nice taste for my professors’ ways. So far I’m optimistic.
Last fall I met a pre-built group of friends that I bonded with quickly. I hadn’t had a group like that since I moved here and was craving it so badly it made me ache. They have always proven to be worldly, corrupting, somewhat insincere, and seemingly random in their affection. Never the less, I’ve clung to them fiercely since last year. I’m a people person, I crave others, and it’s just how God made me. I’m protective, stubborn, clingy (but most people seem like they don’t mind more often than not), idealistic about personality growth, and a lot of other things that can be either good or bad depending on the use. I came here lonely, and they filled that for a while, though I wasn’t being fulfilled enough I made do with what I could have. That last part you just read has been a big problem for me to realize and overcome. Today, I’m sick of dealing with their disrespect. I’m not sure how this is going to play out, but I really shouldn’t be standing for their behavior. Right now I’m in the library because I left them and their behavior in the cafeteria.
Please pray for me to be strong and act as God wants me to. I’m still lonely here, and even in the last 45 minutes away from them, I miss being with ‘friends’. God is Good, and I really want Him to be all that I need.
Don't forget! You're best friend is ALWAYS with you even if nobody else can see Him. =) It's nice to have friends of the human kind, but all you really need is Him! He's the best friend you could ever have and will always treat you and others with respect. And he loves you!
I'm in Hayward again. My flight went well even though things went wrong with the timing of it. So, I'm home again. I hope y'all are having a great day!
Wow that was fast! Can't wait to see you tomorrow! I'm sorry to hear about your Nanna and her boyfriend, she will be in my prayers. As hard as it was, I'm sure she appreciated having you there when he passed away. OH! I will make copies of the lesson sheets from the youth forum for you and bring them tomorrow! I haven't filled them in yet, so they will be nice and clean for you. =)
Hello again. Saturday after noon around 2pm eastern time my Nanna's boyfriend died. My Nanna recanted letting me stay here with her to take care of her, so I'm going back home to California as planned Tuesday morning. Yeah, my life is moving on even though I'm not processing yet, meh.
Today we (Robin, her new husband Terence, Ayla, her best friend Jasmine, and I) are going to Dorney Park. It should be a blast. I wish I didn't feel guilty for having fun when Nanna hurts so much....
I'm not sure I want to say all of this a thousand times, so putting this up here should cut that down by a bit hopefully....
My Nanna's boyfriend of the past 8 years went into cardiac arrest early Thursday morning. They brought him back, but since then he has been unresponsive and are now admitting he's gone into a coma. As you can imagine, my Nanna is hysterical and completely beside herself right now. This has been the first time I've ever seen anyone hooked up on life support, it really scared me and I couldn't really bear to look too closely at him. (Too many needles) I'm not sure how many details I should be giving here, or really that I want to, so there are going to be gaps. Lets see...My Nanna wants me to stay with her. To live with her and take care of her 'for as long as is neccisary' in the most basic terms. I've wanted to do this for her for years now. I've prayed and prayed about this and asked others for prayers as well in that time. Right now I'm asking for prayers that I accept my own decision as well as to understand what God's plan in all this is. I know this has been a lot, and it's sad. I hate being a downer when I post, and in life altogether as well. grins
Well, tomorrow is the wedding, and I'm excited and so is everyone else. Ayla and I got our hair cut yesterday. Mine is SO much shorter, but I really like it anyway. The wedding should be a lot of fun, I really like weddings. Don't ask me about the groom please, I don't have much positive to say besides that he's kind of attractive-ish. I'm just going to shut my mouth about him though, so on to the next topic!
I spent the day with my dad and Ayla today. As some of you know, I don't get along with him for very long when I see him. Early this afternoon we went down to Annapolis to see his parents and that was a really nice trip. I love it there in Annapolis and I've missed visiting there. My dad, Ayla, and I got lost trying to get to the Baltimore Aquarium later in the afternoon. We found it finally, and had a really nice time. Yay dolphins and FROGS!!!! I really loved looking at the frog exhibits. grins
Well, I think I'll end it there; I need to go to bed 'cause we're getting up early to get ready for the wedding. I hope y'all are doing wonderfully!
2 Corinthians 1:3-6
3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer.
