In the past 3 years I have gotten married moved far away from my family after 8 months of trying got pregnant and lost the baby. Then after a year and a half of trying again my doctors told me I was infertile and they aren't sure why. So i decide to go the foster care route and get the two most perfect boys I love them they love us they are my little boys and I couldn't have loved any two kids more and they got taken away from us. If I could imagine how it feels for your kids to die I think it would feel that way. Then I got 2 girls that even though I learned alot it was a very long and stressful 3 months. Then there is stuff in my marriage that happened that means I wont be married anymore and who knows what people have heard because I have heard different stories from different friends but just don't believe everything and maybe one day I will feel like talking about it and some may hear the story.
I am not doing this to get pity or anything I am putting this up here to tell yall to just be understanding for me right now. I love all my friends and family who have tried to help me throguh these things so please don't feel hurt when I say this but I just have felt so alone through these past 3 years. I know I am not the only one who goes through these things and I know I will always have some of you but you have to understand my heart hurts and sometimes it is just not that easy. I feel alone and empty inside right now and I am just trying to get through it.
I really do love everyone and I am trying and I want to thank everyone that is trying to help me.
I am just trying to wrap my little mind around all these things that have happened. Why my life dream has just gone down the drain. And please please don't say everything happens for a reason or there is a plan for everything cause honestly that doesn't help and I am not trying to be rude but after 3 long long long years of hearing this I think I am starting to resent those 2 phrases the most.
Hey girl, I have been thinking about you a lot lately!!! Seriously. I was like, man, I haven't heard anything from Janis lately. I am really sorry to hear about your life right now and how you are feeling. Gosh, I wish there was something I could do to help. Please know I am here for you if you want to talk. If not, just know I am praying for you. Just remember that God is there. He is the ONLY one who can take your loneliness away. Love you girl! :)
Sister! I want you to know that nothing I have said to anyone has been a lie. Only what I knew and not even all of it sometimes...b/c there are things I felt not everyone needs to know. I only want what's best for your soul and I have prayed, cried, and lost a lot of sleep worried for your soul. I love you so much and you are my best friend. You know I am amd have been here for you. I haven't said anything to anyone that I haven't said to you. I know your heart, and I know how strong you are. I miss you more than you'll ever know! Stay strong and don't forget that we have come too far to stay away from the things we saw growing up to give up now. You have my love, and my hand, shoulder, bed whenever need may be. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!"
Hey Janice, this is Anita K. You have a lot of friends praying for you right now, and I know that you can get through these hard times, God has promised that. We love you!
I am praying for you as well. Although I obviously can not understand know that I want to and am hear to listen if you want to talk. My email is thekimbrels@gmail.com and my door is always open. I love you!!!
Hi, I know you don't know me but I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you. Whenever I start thinking about how hard something is that I have to endure, I think about Christ or people who have it worse than I do. Christ bled and died for our souls. He went through the MOST painful and excrutiating pain before he died. He bore ALL the weight of the world's sins. I can NOT imagine the torment he went through physically, spiritually, and emotionally. God is sooo GOOD and He is EVERYWHERE! You are NEVER alone. He knows exactly how you feel and why. Let Him guide you and be your strength and your joy. Let Him fill your soul and you will never feel empty. He LOVES YOU!!!! If you look hard enough you can see all the blessings we have in each day. I'm praying for you!
I have really been missing you a lot. I love you so much. We are all praying for you. My kids miss you and ask about you. PLEASE call me or come over any time you want to...NOMATTER what time of the night!!! OXOXOXOXOXO Part of me is missing without you in our lives...
wow. i feel like i have lost a friend that i had for so long. i really miss you and am really concerned about you and Tony. We are praying for you every day.
I have been on a trip where my phone has not worked and I am in new mexico now and finally able to get to a computer. So here I am alive and well. No worries.....
I have been having a blast been to South dakota to see mount rushomore and so so so much more. Got to be really nerdy and look at the Stargate cheyenne mountain in colorado. It has been a blast will update more when I get back!!!!
I'm so happy for the girls to be placed to adopt if possible, but I am sad for you. You will really miss them, but it was a good experience for you and Tony.
