Wow, if you've never had an eye injury, pray that you don't. You can't imagine the pain! Thankfully, my eye is feeling much better today and for the most part, feels almost good as new. It's still a little itchy, somewhat sensitive to light and blurry (could be the prescription contact bandaid they put in my eye though). It's certainly been a strange couple of days!
Glad you're starting to feel better. I've never had an eye injury but I've had cryosurgery on one of them and was awake for it-I HATE anything that has to do with my eyes.
Thanks for your encouraging thoughts, Jenny. And thanks for thinking about us! I'll tell everyone "hi" for you. I always read your blogs, too, but don't always comment like I should. I'm glad your eye survived and that ya'll are having good times lately! Luv you!
This will be a departure from my last serious post but I seriously HAVE to share this.
Wednesday night - I'm sitting in services and Ian is beginning to act up. I turn to the right to pick him up when ... my back completely seizes up on me. Rob looks at me like I'm crazy as I'm shaking my head and mouthing "I can't.... I can't.... I can't take him." I finally make it out of the pew (and I'm happy to share that I did it wihout having to crawl out of the building in a skirt). We get home and Precious Corbin guides me into the house and waits on me. I wish I could have Rob do the video impression of me ... HILARIOUS!
With the exception of back pains, Thursday is a perfect day. We enjoyed the day with family. Perfect.
Today - the boxes and trash in my house from unwrapping all the stuff is driving me nuts. So, I decide to start cleaning up. It's at that moment that a CardBoard Box decides to take me down. I think I'm winning when Mr. Box swings back at me for the blow .... RIGHT IN MY EYE! 2 hours later, I'm at the eye doctor only to find out Mr. Box gave me a doozie of a tear in my cornea. I'm now wearing dark glasses and am on "bed rest" for the next two days due to a tear that took 25% off the surface of my cornea. I am VERY thankful it wasn't work and didn't affect my sight. Yikes!
Ahhhh... such is life! It's really funny and I'm just thankful my injury wasn't more serious.
Mom called me right as we got home and told me. Sorry to hear about it. We had a good start to the day but as soon as we got to the restaurant in Columbus Raven started acting funny and ended up throwing up several times. She fell asleep on Corey's lap and when we got to the car she woke up and acted completely normal. We decided to stop off at the outlet mall to go to a few stores-we left and she slept the whole way home and when we got home she threw up again. We just finished Dumbo and after giving her tylenol she's up and playing with her toys. Who knows?? Just glad to be able to chill at home tomorrow. Our house looks like it's been hit by a tornado so I'll need to do some picking up. Take care.
Oh wow! What a crazy couple of days. My back goes out on me now from time to time and I am currently going to the chiropractor for help with that. Hope you will be feeling better soon!
I can't believe we are just over a week away from another year gone. In many ways, I'm thankful this year is nearly off the books. This hasn't been my best year in many ways.
Spiritually, I struggled more than I'd like to admit. At the beginning of the year, I was questioning my faith and my priorities were WAAAAAY out of whack. Thankfully, I had a crummy boss to help me learn some tough lessons.
I was angry at myself for even struggling. I read Proverbs like it was my personal life manual. And even then, STILL struggled?! WHAT was I thinking? Like I was ever going to land in the same place as King Solomon -- get real!
I know that I was running ... running away from the realities of Corbin's struggles. I so desperately wanted and needed SOMETHING that I could invest my energy and see positive results. So much for that plan -- I invested so much, too much in a job, and now I am saddled with the guilt and sorrow of poor decisions.
Months tick by and thankfully, I became grounded again in my faith. I got more "invested" in church activities -- no more going through the motions. In 2009, I hope I finally come to really understand my purpose for working so hard. I keep feeling like if I do more, I will earn something -- not money but acceptance, being more liked or a feeling of value to others. I need to come to a clear understanding of my worth to the Lord. Not in an arrogant sort of way but in the way that helps me peacefully lay down my head and know that I don't have to do, do, do to be valuable to the Lord. It doesn't matter how much I work, I never will EARN His love - He just loves me anyway.
I also hope to come to a good place with Corbin's issues. I love him so much. Still, I somehow wish this whole Aspergers thing would just go away. I know our problems aren't as big as others. I feel bogged down when we can't make it through an hour worship service or deal with some mundane life changes. So, my prayer is that I will just be ok -- "content in whatever circumstances I am in".
Of course, I have many of the typical resolutions as well but my biggest prayer is that this time next year, I don't have to say, "Yeah, I was a back slider who returned and barely moved the needle". I want to be a stronger soldier for the kingdom. That means, I need to create an executable plan -- one that isn't my typical, unrealistic plan but one that allows me to put one step in front of the other implementing small but notable improvements in my life.
Jenny, you are an encouragement to me, and you always have been. I understand that perfectionist tendency to hang all of your value on your accomplishments. It is a fleeting glory, huh? It's hard work to be a good mom, and we want so very much for our children -- we want everything for them. It's okay to be discouraged sometimes, okay to get down. As long as you keep looking to the Lord, He will lift you up.
I will pray for you. Love and hugs... ♥
~oh, and a book that really help me understand God's unconditional love for me was, The Search for Significance by Robert S. McGee. It changed my whole way of thinking. :o) ~And amazon has it used for > $4 right now.
I can totally relate to your post. My embarassment is that I don't have a good reason for my struggle. I'm sure it is hard to be tired of Corbin's issues without feeling guilty for being tired. I'm that way sometimes with Kelli. I think ok can we have one week at school where we don't have some kind of issue? But then I see other children who are sick and I am ashamed. Let's work together in 2009. I'll pull on you if you pull on me :) Merry Christmas!
Jenny, we all end up in that "going through the motions" spot at some point in our walk. Different circumstances bring it on for different people, but very few people escape it. I have found myself there too at points in this last year. The way I am going about climbing out is just plain reading through the bible. I'm reading it for the big picture...to know God...to read it as His story to me. I'm not reading it to memorize facts or learn names or remember kings or details. I'm reading it to get hooked on God's story. And it's pretty amazing. Reading it like this has been awesome. I bought the Bible in 90 Days and am reading 12 pages a day. I'm behind a few days, but it's going pretty well. I also suggest His Word in My Heart by Janet Pope. It's SUCH a boost and it teaches you how to memorize long passages in just minutes each day. Very cool stuff.
It's hard to believe Christmas is less than a week away. I've got all the shopping and wrapping done so I'm just waiting for the day to arrive to celebrate.
The last few days have caused me to really pause and remember the things I am grateful for. On my drive to work, I listened to a story on Good Morning America about Elena Desserich - a 5 year old girl who unfortunately lost her battle to brain cancer. Yet, through her journey, she recognized the importance of each and every day. In her final days, she could no longer speak so she expressed herself in art. And, after she was gone, her family found literally hundreds of notes she had left behind to comfort them. Precious little girl.
I know of more families like Elena's -- precious 7 yr old Nathan Ing, the high school student Kelsey Harris, fellow FC alumni - Stacey King and her father Ronnie Walker. Cancer is so prevalent -- I'm grateful for our health.
I'm also incredibly thankful for our employment. Every day I spend time speaking to candidate after candidate who is desperately seeking a way to make ends meet. My task is to select the best one. Many times, my heart is heavy with the ones I have not chosen. I'm not worried about Christmas (although it does pain me that there may not be one to enjoy at that home) -- I think about the basic necessities and pray they will find the right fit.
In so many ways, we are richly blessed. It's not the stuff -- it's the blessing of our eternal home that lies ahead. What a comfort to realize that home is even available to us!
I hope in all the hustle and bustle, you can take time to remember the blessings in your life. Not because next week is a celebration of our Savior's birth ... rather, just BECAUSE every day is a "Precious Present".
Amen. Been thinking like this also. Although, the celebration of Jesus' birth does not bother me. I kind of like that the entire nation is rallied around the One I love so much. If nothing else, it's a good time to bring Him up to people.
Today, I had to do early morning errand running. Before I set out, the snow began to fall. We weren't expecting much but to my surprise, things began to stick. We don't have a lot but we have some.
Snow is so beautiful. As I walked to my car, I enjoyed listening to the peacefulness that comes from the soft "crunch" beneath my shoes. There's simply no other sound like it. And, as the pure, white snow falls, it truly gets you in the mood for the holidays.
This week was a good week. As I wrote earlier, we are very at peace after the conversation with Corbin's principal. I don't know how, but this will work out. I also came in contact with two other families who are at the beginning of the journey with their children. While I feel there pain, it was nice to know I could help and just listen.
I feel such an opportunity to use this challenge to reach others. I pray that doors will open ... that through this, we can lead souls to Christ.
Beautiful.
I REALLY wish I could have that snow feeling, but I have to accept 50 degrees and asphalt and get in the holiday spirit anyway!
Love to you guys.
