I am so excited about Thanksgiving. Johns parents and Andrea will be coming to dinner at our place. I love hosting dinner parties it is so much fun. We make the best Turkey ever! I never thought we would have a secret recipe to pass down to our kids if we had any but this one is definitely it! This is such an awesome bird! We got almost a 22 pounder this year! Plenty of leftovers for everyone! I have baked the Apple pie ahead of time and everything is looking good! Bongo and Princess are very pleased with the idea of a big bird in our refrigerator although, they are very confused as to what is going on. Every time someone goes in the Refrigerator the Bongo feels the need to escort us just to make sure it is still their. Princess on the other hand felt the need to bark at it just to be sure it was dead and wasn't coming back to life. Things couldn't be better!
Friday, We put up the Christmas tree! I am excited about this since this will be our first year at this apartment and is a much better layout. We got new Salt and Pepper shakers in the form of snowman and I have decided to not buy a new table cloth but make the theme in the kitchen and dining room snow. So I got a new towel set for the occasion a head of time and I will be putting up the snowflake garland from last year. I think it will look gorgeous! I already did my shopping for the dogs starting back in August. I did so much bargaining I got two big bags full of stuff for them and even found a few things for John! So all is set this year and Bongo and Princess are excited to see Santa Paws. Bongo saw his toys already and is upset that I won't let him play with his Loofa and Princess found the Rawhide house and tried eating the plastic. Both dogs are very confused about why they can't play with the toys yet. I am sure they will be plenty of fun for the holidays. Andrea and I already made some holiday biscuits from scratch. I added cheese and Chicken Broth and they were in Doggie heaven. We shaped them into pumpkins and Christmas themed cutouts. We are hoping Bongo will work with us on the gingerbread issue this year he loves those cookies!
I could not imagine being Santa in that situation either! I would not want to get bit all day! I didn't mean to delete your alls comments, I meant to delete the ones without any posts, How was your Thanksgiving?
I am tired of people who call themselves Christians acting as if there is no God at all. For a while I thought I cared what a few people said until I talked with some other Christians who told me not to worry about what they thought and that I should just focus on being as good of a Christian as I could be. So from now on if I receive a post that is derogatory and hurtful I will not give them any attention. Mostly because I am tired of having anxiety attacks based on something that should not have even been said. I have not posted much on here for the past week because I have been having anxiety attacks galore that kept me from more important things in life like converting my next door neighbors. I skipped out on a bible study and had two outbursts because people can't seem to understand that my mind doesn't work like everyone else's. Plain and simple I do not need to be having an anxiety attack because my heart is weak from the fluttering and it only makes it worse to the point where I am in pain most of my day.
On a better note last night my neighbors Kelly and Andrea came over. As of late I am trying to convert them. Andrea is kind of like me she has anxiety attacks and has been a great help to me during some rather difficult times and has kept me going when I thought I could go no further. She understands what it is to have something wrong that no one else understands at a very young age. Kelly has two boys ages 8 and 10 (I think) she had a good macaroni and cheese recipe and an interesting version of baked beans. I made Chicken and Dumplings for the first time but could give no recipe cause I didn't measure a thing. My husband gave me a hard time about this cause I am always telling him to write things down. LOL. The night before last We had Verns and his two boys over for some pumpkin pie and a little guitar hero. We all have had a ton of fun lately and I am learning that I can have a positive effect for the Lord on my neighbors. They all know I have Aspergers since I am very open about this and treat me normal like anyone else they meet. This is a fresh breath of air for me. I just love throwing parties and little get together with the neighbors. Inviting them into our home so we can share the Lord with them is fun. Most people are taken back about how John and I run our home. They ask about why he prays out loud and I don't? Or recently why we celebrate christmas but not the christ part? This has been a great opportunity. Lately, there have been some Jehovah witnesses handing out some flyers I hope they come to our place this week I would love to have a bible study with them. They seem like very nice quiet women so I might have a shot at this.
Awesome, sounds like fun! I'm glad you have people to convert to Christ and people to hang out with, that's great! Sounds like things are going better for you! I'm glad!
Larry has a World of Warcraft account and one of his characters is named Trax. He said we should name the dog Trax, and I said yeah, that would be a cool name, so we agreed. He thinks it's named after his World of Warcraft Character, but I just like the name, and considering the discription we were given of the dog at the time, we agreed that the name Trax suited him well. So ever since I told my supervisor that his name is Trax, he responds to his name, so that's very exciting!
I am so excited. My husband and I purchased our Thanksgiving Turkey on Saturday. It weighed almost 22 pounds! I also got an Acorn squash and 4 pie pumpkins so I can make everything from scratch for the holidays. To top it all off I also went to Big lots and found a salt and Pepper shaker set of Snowmen with a matching set of potholders and towels. I have decided this year that my dining room will be themed with Snow. I have picked out the garland it is blue with snowflakes! I love Christmas and I am exstatic about decorating. This year my husband and I have so much to be thankful for and I can't wait to be able to share our blessings with others. I have finished my shopping for my dogs. I have two dog toy stockings set a side for them, two rawhide goody bags, rawhide canes, a Christmas Loofa, and some other goodies for them as well! I have bought my supplies to make them christmas shapped biscuits and am planning on taking them to see Santa Paws the first weekend in December. Bongo my Aussie last year learned how to open his presents so this year I am really excited about him opening things on Christmas day. Princess on the other hand siffs out every year anything that is food and tires to eat it rapper and all. She has always been a joy to watch.
Bongo has been pleased that I am home more than I used to be he is happier and more playful. I love him to death and missed him so much while I was working. Princess is just happy to have a lap to sit on and someone to give her treats and rub her tummy. They are both different in their own special ways. We have now found a play mate that is a Chihuahua to set up play dates with. She is funny to watch and seems like she is having fun playing. She has also recently started playing fetch again. I have tried hard to get her to do this for almost a year now but here recently I through a toy and she went and got it for me. She is happy and active again. The vet at petsmart says that she is in good condition so I am happy for her. Bongo went to the vet to but was a little distraught when the Dr. Took his temperature. They did it the way you take a babies temperature. The look on his face was classic! Well I guess that is it not much else going on here accept a lot of baking the apartment smells wonderful!
Basically, the last couple of weeks have been really difficult ones. I have been struggling with my IBS and found blood which doesn't exactly make me all that calm about everything. I have been stressed out about work but not at work. I get stressed out about it at home, which then causes me to not sleep because I have an anxiety about going to work, which then causes my IBS to flare up and well the result I am not at work today. Peachy! Anyone want to trade lives? So basically I am in a ton of pain and cranky. Yeah! Oh well I know that there are worse things that could happen I watch them come into the pharmacy every day. I can't help but feel bad for these people. I am tender hearted so it doesn't help when I see people with cancer cause then all I want to do is cry especially when I see what the bill is. Ouch. So I am depressed and hard time sleeping cause I am having nightmares about people I talk to and see every day coming in and telling me they are dying of things that cannot be cured. Worst of all I sometimes see friends in these dreams. I worry about every little thing with people I know cause I see this. All in all I don't know how Merle does it every day of his life. I would have died of depression if I were him. I guess it just makes you realize young what you could loose and makes you thankful for what you have. I have learned over and over again that life is short and that life could end today. Although I actually look forward to the day I die at least I won't be in pain and I will actually understand peoples emotions. I look forward to going home. A permanent place where you don't have to move every two years, people don't fight, don't die, and we get to be with God eternally. Yeah, sounds like a good home can't wait to meet my father.
eh, I will live I have been through this before. It is just a pain in the neck to deal with. I no longer work for the pharmacy so I won't have that stress hopefully everything will calm down for me soon. At least I will have fewer anxiet attacks
brianne, did you actually have a point to posting that to me privately? If you do, then why don't you come right out and say it? If you can't, then don't say anything at all. Also, if you don't, then I will assume that you had no reason to post that aside for posting it for yourself.
Look the only point I am making to you is that I never said anything to anyone about anyone you know. I have asked for advice from people on how to deal with certain situations but only from a preacher and an elder back home. I don't exactly care about the petty garbage that goes on in your life that you think is going on in mine. I have one person I have talked to my age the whole time about what is going on and that is because I wanted to know what worked for her. However, if I can't say it to the person I asked advice about then I won't say it at all. That is how you know that I talk behind no ones back. I understand you were defending a friend but you need to be quiet and ask who it is about first before you jump to conclusions and go getting hyped about something you had no right saying anything about. Frankly, I have friends that are hurt by what others say and I have defended them on occassion but only when I know in full what it is that is going on. And only because I can give evidence that can prove they weren't at fault. That is the only time I get involved. However, I have yet to see you even do that or to see you do something that would be just as useful. Bri you make too many assumptions to quickly. In doing this you make yourself look badly. Not only that but I am ticked with the person who has been telling you things about me that shouldn't have been told to you. It was private. I trusted her and thought she would keep all things between us. I am very dissapointed and hurt right now. Not only that but I didn't tell her everything and won't. I am not about to worry people about everything. So not only did she talk about something private but she didn't know the full story so now I am playing referee trying to fix the damage.
Well, work went alright this week although I feel like some people even those I am close with would rather see me fall on my face than succeed. So many people think that just because I have aspergers I can't do anything at all or that I should just give up and just file for government help because they think I can't do anything right. The thing that kills me is that so many people wanted me to work but then when I did finally get a job no one wanted me to work. Not that I really care what others think of me it is just really annoying me that all anyone ever does is tell me what I should or should not do. I wish people would just let me sink or swim. Yes I have aspergers but it doesn't have me. I can do anything I set my mind to doing it is just I hate hearing people whine at me or tell me what a lousy job I am doing they need to be quiet because they are fellow christians and they should be supportive and positive about this instead of dragging me down to the point where I just want to lay down and die. I really hate sometimes how people think they are helping me but all they are really doing is nit picking, hurting me, and just overall are not giving constructive critism. I mean they have no idea how to be a christian all they sound like is someone who thinks they know it all but they don't. Not only that but I wish christians would just learn to stop whining about what they don't have or where they can't live. People God told us to be content (Philippians 4:11, 1 Timothy 6:8, and Hebbrews 13:5) that doesn't mean we can't miss anything it just means that we have to happy with what we have and with what God gives us. However, I see so many christians constantly saying I hate where I live, I hate what I look like, I hate my clothes, I wish I had this, or I wish I had that. I am personally very tired of this especially when someone goes on, and on, and on, and on about this every day of their lives. How do these people hope to be effecient in their work for the Lord? How do they think it makes others feel about Christianity? If we say we are going to do what the bible says than that means that first we need to know what God says about being content, then we need to show that we are content with what God gives us by showing how grateful we are buy thanking him first and second by not whining about what we don't have. Instead of being discontent about what we don't have let us remember that we should not want the things of this earth but we should be looking to heaven always thinking there will be nothing better for us then this.
Furthermore, I am seeing so many women who think that being a Christian wife is simply reading their bibles, talking about God, praying, making dinner, keeping a tiddy house, and simply acting like they are Godly. I am for one tired of this. Women I know that in the work place it is hard to stay quiet but we need to be. You see a woman that talks bad about her husband amongst others or tells someone something that their husband didn't want someone knowing about it makes your husbands look bad. If you have a fight don't talk about it amongst others in public. Find one or maybe even two people who are quiet and won't go tell the world. Don't get involved in a conversation with women who talk badly about their husbands and say things like my husband always does this wrong, or that wrong, or he did this yesterday, and he never does this right. When you do that especially among women someone some where will find out and tell the world. Then when your husband and you are older and have grown believing children and he is up for eldership someone is going to remember what he did or didn't do back 20 years ago and think he wouldn't make a good elder. Or when you talk bad and keep on doing that he won't be a elder because of his wife because the whole world along with the congregation knows how much she likes to talk. Just don't say anything about your husband bad. Tell them you have a good man and God has blessed you greatly but don't complain about him. How would you feel if he said these things about you? Airing your dirty laundry for everyone to see isn't a good thing. I think the Church doesn't speak enough about how women can make or break their husbands both as a successful Christian and as a man who wants to do good things for God in the church. We need to be submissive and quiet (proverbs 10:13, Proverbs 15:2, Proverbs 15:4, Proverbs 18:21, and James 1:26)
I'm doing really well, a lot of things are really looking up for me right now (I can't always talk about it with all of my friends because when I do, it's like I've done something wrong by talking about the good things in my life, but that's okay, I realize that I have the right to talk about those things whenever I want). I'm so excited about the wedding, I'm not nervous about it because Larry is the man who I want to be with forever. It's more like I am stressed with everything I have going on because there's just so much happening at one time that's it's almost overwhelming but I'm still excited. I have done a lot of things to prepare, but there's still a lot of things that need to get done for the wedding.
To the bothof you...
I KNOW who you're both talking about and I don't appreciate it. You're supposed to be friends and here you are, talking about this person, "behind they're back" but for ALL THE WORLD TO SEE!
I just have one thing more for each of you:
Karilee: Be careful to not bite the hand that drives you.
Bonnie: Just because you can't always talk to all of your friends about things all the time, or even some of the time (or any of the time) doesn't mean that the entire world needs to know and you don't need to make her feel bad about it.
I'm sorry, I did not mean to get you involved in my specific affairs, I was not intentionally gossiping, I can NOT talk to most of my friends about these things because they are always busy, have moved away, or its like I've done something wrong (as in, some believe that I talk too much about my life), and that is nothing negitive about anyone, and I don't hold anything againt anyone. I was making a general statement....I did not mean to hurt anyone. I commented on this blog because I needed to explain what I meant....because I was not clear enough....
wow, brianne, don't you think you know it all...such a general statement is made and you just "know" it was only directed at one person...here is an idea, why don't you stop trying to cause problems by trying to take a general statement made by someone and labeling it onto only one person.
Brianne the person you think you think this was about wasn't actually about them at all. You have no idea what you are talking about. That is why I have distanced you the entire time since you were at reflections. Your mouth gets you in trouble every time and just like it did then it is now too. You made the person you are talking about look bad. I gave generalized examples about things that because you are not involved with my life with you know nothing about. I talked to that person and she didn't necessarily think it was about her. I told her what it was about. As for the driving issue I don't care if someone is in the wrong and they do everything for me. God will provide away for me. Besides my job is to help other christians and sometimes as in this case it isn't always popular. If I had something to say to them I would just plain say it. The bible doesn't always say it is fun or popular it just says to do it and have faith. Which if the only thing a car is all you can say anything about than that says so much about you and where you are at. I could say so much more because I know so much about what goes on with you but I won't because I am better than to go and do what you did.
I get the dog within a month. It's probably going to be mostly white with a few black Spots, Larry and I are naming him Trax, I'll have to bring him by sometime. I'm so excited!
How is it gossiping when you are talking about things in a general fashion for all christians to read and ponder. The good thing about being able to right general comments like these is that if one christian is dealing with something, then others probably are too. This then makes it easier to talk about and figure out if it's something christians have to work on together to overcome or something that has to personally be taken care of.
