i did my over the top happy mail birthday gift for someone this week...... it has been years ... and years... it was fun... hours of work ....
those that know.. me... or have experienced it... well... thats all i gots to say
how does someone deal with one of the closest friends that is bi-polar, has an eating disorder.. has A D D low self concept and asteem to stand up for herself, a worrier, and does not know how to be a friend because i am the first one she has had since she was 12.... ? God knows i love her and i always want to be there for her.. but what does a guy do.... when alllllll that stuff combines to make a Hurricane of emotions all at once which causes her to say things she will regret and not wish she said a day later? how do i know what is real and what is the emotions.. or the drugs to stop the emotions that are not really working but making the emotions worse? God must not think i have enough patience....
i bought a book today called quiet your mind.... by john selby... i need a physical way to actually stop my mind from working overly too much... when i am done.. i will make her read it... i bought it for her... but i think i need it too... sometimes we plaque ourselves with too much thought...
yes... i am going to start meditating.....
the end
i am going to back to my generally pig headed statement of .. girls are stupid heads.. that is not to say that guys are not pigs and retarded.. but girls are stupid heads.. not those that are reading this though... and still talk to me.. and like me.. and are not deciding that it is too hard to my friend because i am a manager and you are not... yeah.. that is all i got...
