Suffice it to say that I really messed up. I waited too long to tell someone my true feelings and now it's too late.
Let that be a lesson to y'all, and to me. Don't wait! If you want someone to know something, tell them. Don't play games. Don't be shy. Don't be afraid. Life is too short.
I've found that out first hand.
I just ate for the first time in 30 hours. I tossed and turned all night, not really getting any sleep. I am torn up inside. Not real sure what to do about it.
Diet update: I've lost 85 lbs total now. Even I'm starting to finally notice it when I look in the mirror. It's toughest to notice when you see yourself everyday. But friends and family are saying I'm much different.
Other than that, I'm not real excited about anything in my life. I'm listless, conflicted and somewhat depressed. I can't seem to shake it, and it's starting to really bother me. I try to find things to do, but there isn't a whole lot. And even when I'm doing those things, my mind is concentrating on the stuff that is upsetting me. Can't escape your thoughts! haha
I really thought losing weight and getting healthier would make me so much happier. So far, it isn't like that at all. I guess I'll keep fighting through it.
ok, I really hope I do great because today I had to like get up in front of the class and all 3 of us sang while the band played and it was awkward, lol, so we'll see how it goes, but in the next couple of days they'll mic us, aaaaahhhhh, scary
I just finished my 18th week on the diet. I've lost 77 lbs so far.
It's getting much harder. I'm eating outside the diet more. I'm trying to stay with it as much as possible and I'm going to start working out more to try and kickstart it again.
Still have a way to go. Hopefully I'll be at my goal sometime in the spring!
YAY TEXAS! I hadn't had a chance to see Zero-U play all year, so yesterday was the first time. They played a good game, but Texas showed up and out played them. I think that even if Texas had lost, that was still a good game to watch.
