Gabriel was baptized last night!!! He just turned 12 on the 13th, by the way. This is a great relief, but not the end of the journey. He's younger than I was when I was baptized.
VIOLET sold out the last two nights. WHAT AN EXPERIENCE!!! SOOO much time, but I'm glad I finally have done something I've wanted to my whole living life! I'm a theatre minor for those who don't know.
The College Heights Herald is also another way I'm currently living the dream. It's a lot of fun, sometimes frustrating but mostly all good! That's just life!
Thanksgiving is coming up. Oh, and the videos I've done for my basic vid prod class; I'm putting em up on my youtube. Hahaha...so far I have an A in that class which is odd because I thought I'd have a B or C. Things rarely turn out like you expect them.
Trips to Waffle House are amazing.
Boys can be cool, but definitely send mixed messages. I guess ladies do too...
a note: That's what friends are for
honestly
it can get annoying
inconsistencies drive me up the wall
and i think to myself that it will stay like this always.
the story of my life, is this.
in the world, i am, al0ne.
but that is why i have my friends...for this so called life of mine...
may they never abandon me. may i never fail them.
may i always keep my promises. and bad luck to those who do not keep their own.
I am exhausted, but am gonna take a nap because tonite I am ACTUALLY going to the midnight showing of Twilight with friends!
Anddd...I have a 9:10 class in the morning. We'll see how that goes. Hahaha. IT IS BASKETBALL SEASON!!!!!!!!!!
Dance until the band stops playing. Sing with all your might.
It's time to move on. Time moves on. It goes faster each day. One day feels like a time elapsed photograph.The electric sky is the same it was twelve moons ago, but the air isn't as crisp. The wind bites me through my jacket which you said felt so good...I think to myself, I can't please the world. There are some decisions I have to make for myself. Some things get messed up and over no matter which path I choose to fork my way down.
Everyone thinks they are the most important. Everyone is arrogant.
Many think they know love, but few have, and many who haven't never will.
My own personal symphony plays while I walk slowly up the hill. It reminds me of what it would be like to walk across the globe...leaning backwards on the hihghway yet never falling down. The river is crossed, the bridge shakes. My hair blows back and I wonder what would've happened if...
If is useless. The past is like If. We must look ahead. I must move on. I must overwhelm myself so I can't feel the pain. If it seeps through, that might be my own fault, for growing pains are over, gone, done.
Is there not a cure for sorrow? It never really goes away. We laugh to relieve ourselves, but I, I scream to relieve my mind.
It is impossible to make everyone happy. There are decisions I must make for myself, despite the disagreement or arrogance of others.
You follow me everywhere, and frankly, I'm sick of it.
Frankly, I'm sick of you, and yet sick for you, sick for you, and yet sick without you. But there is more than one you...and you are sick. Both of you.
The wind blows colder and it bites. But worse, it blows The scent to me, and I am filled with memories, and some good things I had forgotten--or tried to forget . I've been wrong so many times. I've been right at times, too. But being wrong is what I remember. Yet I remember what it was like with...
My memory is too good for my own sanity's sake. Yet I am sane.
The river is crossed, the bridge shakes. My hair blows back and I wonder what would've happened if...
If is useless. The past is like If. We must look ahead. I must move on. I must overwhelm myself so I won't feel the pain. Although my lips were touched again, when the sun sank, I cried, because I understood. I understood what the difference was. And I realize now, that there is really no such thing as a Lost Cause, but yet, there are causes that are forgotten. Forgotten and lost are two different things, aren't they?
You follow me everywhere, and frankly, I'm sick of it.
Frankly, I'm sick of you, and yet sick for you, sick for you, and yet sick without you. Multiple personalities sicken me. They drown me. You make me drunk, and I have never drank. But there is more than one you...and you are diseased, deformed. Both of you. All of you.
No matter which fork I take, my hair blows forward and backward and left and right and then it happened-- I caught the scent of the past, of days gone by.
My soundtrack goes on. People can think I am useless and stupid, or wise and useful if they want. It will make no difference to me.
For I know. I know, that I was right. I know, I comprehend, that I've taken the correct path. I'm coasting, biking, sailing, sliding, skiing down this forked path. And I know that I was right, though you told me I was wrong. Although I feared I would be wrong. I will never say I told you so, but I am thinking, right now, that I was right, the Whole Time.
And now I wonder if it ever even really mattered that much. I know now that it did. I see myself as clearly as through the looking glass--except for the fact that in a looking glass, I can only see myself backwards. I see the world through new hazel eyes.
I am not condescending. I make the decisions that are right for myself, and I'm willing to take the consequences, and I have. You must be willing to live by the same playbook.
I see clearly, and understand that I am making the decision of a lifetime.
This is to live, this is the last time, this is the last chance, to live, to love, and to overwhelm myself with friends and laughter and helping others. For this is life. And this, I know, is real.
For I know, once again, that I am right about that.
#0. don't be nefarious. unless you want to have fun.
-1. I HATE seeing my place taken by others. Especially when they are...how shall I say it...unjust?? Towards me and my friends. Such is life. One day...one day I'll have my revenge...(LOVE! VALOR! COMPASSION!? anyone???theatre folk??)
#1.History will teach us nothing.
#2. I've been searching for something lately...I've got my foot down on so many paths but I haven't really crossed into any of them..or maybe I have, but I'm just crossing all of them in a not-very-orderly fashion. I'm trying to say 'Yes' more of the time and be a little more free...to enjoy what I've got left in life. Which explains for some of my actions over the past couple of weeks--and maybe of the near future.
#3.People are so blind to love, it makes me want to cry. I just want to show you, let me show you... Let me take you down and I'll show you what love really is...You think you've got it, and maybe you do, but maybe you don't.
Some of us know what love is. Some of us are alone.
#4.I'm selfish. But let's be honest, we are all selfish. But I think I'm improving.
Why do people assume the worst? I've always tried not to do this but lately I've found myself leaning towards that...I just have had so many people lie to me or try to deceive me lately---or break their promises---that I find myself not nearly as trusting as I used to be. But that happens when you get cut down.
$7.No one loses my respect like a liar or someone who breaks a promise. Yet...
*6.How many times can we say we love God and then go off and act like...
Some supposed educated people who are supposed to educate us are real high minded jerks. I can't go into specifics, and I won't, but I just thought I'd throw that in there.
I want a simple love. I want to visit a nation with fresh air. I want to go to California. I want to go to Maine. I want my true love to take me to Prince Edward Island...or Mammoth Cave.
#5. I would like to kiss a stranger one day.
Life is precious, no matter how small. I think a lot of us are forgetting this.
The sky is calling. And the stars. They point to this...
Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.
Some things tie your life together,
With slender threads and things to treasure.
Days like that should last and last and last.
The bed's too big without you.
The winner takes it all...
You tell me that you need me, then you go and cut me down.
Take another chance take a fall, take a shot for you. I need you like a heart needs a beat but it's nothing new.
It went straight to my heart...but call me tommorrow. I'll be true to no one but you.
Sometimes you must survive on just the air you breathe. Sometimes there is no truth, but still you do believe.
How fragile we all are...
History will teach us nothing? I hope that isn't meant how it sounds. Think about the Old Testament, written for our learning. It teaches us so much we can use today by learning from others mistakes before us. Good dashboard quote on the last half of that post btw, good song.
Life is pretty spiffy I suppose right now. I want to ask everyone, are you who you want to be? (aka Switchfoot)
I'm getting to do everything I've always wanted to do--be in a musical, write for the Herald (newspaper), go overseas next summer and I got to see CHIODOS and hear them play many of my favorite songs...such as "The words 'best friend' become redefined" and "Baby, You wouldn't last a minute on the creek" "All Nereids Beware" and "We're gonna have us a champagne jam."
It all pretty much has made this year much better than I expected. Switchfoot makes one very calm and helps you realize what is most important in life, while Chiodos brings out your insanity and anger and energy so that you loosen up (some loosen up a little too much...) and scream and shout...and then your ears ring afterwards.
I brought my dear cousin Amber to her first concert and protected her from the mosh pit as much as I could, haha. Things got a bit crazy. I was lucky her parents let her go with me, so I couldn't let anything happen to her.But... It was wonderful. I had known about the concert for a couple of months but I hadn't been sure if I'd be able to go because of it being over fall break. But it was amazing, and I'm glad I went. (However what happened to Person L? whatever.) Motion City Soundtrack...rocked my socks as well.
I'm not really sure what the best concert of my life is, but I'd say that Chiodos definitely is close to the top. AUUUUgh. :)
Note to some guys: learn to grow up and not think that everything is happening just because of you. don't think that girls are so obsessed over you that they follow you everywhere. in fact, just get over it.
Note to all girls: don't waste your time on someone who can't see straight or make their own decisions--or keep to their promises. If you love them, you're probably going to be screwed, but don't say I didn't warn you. Just speaking from experience. It's something you can never really completely get over if you really love them.
Next in line I hope:
TRANS-SIBERIAN ORCHESTRA
MAE
DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL
STING
ALISON KRAUSS/UNION STATION
YANNI
If I see them, or hear them, whatever. My life will be complete. :>) That is, I will have done everything I've ever wanted to do, whether or not exactly how or with who I wanted...still. God has really blessed me with the opportunity to share and to give and take...in other words, experience life through music.
1)It's the experience that counts. With everything.
2)As always, it's wisest to ask forgiveness rather than permission.
3)And believe me, I really know who my best friends are now, especially after tonight.
4)Don't be fooled.
5) Ask and ye shall receive
oh,ok i just asked my mom, and she said she knows your mom? And she dosen't realy know you. Well i just saw your pic and i remembered you coming to our church in bowling green.
Hey, i think you were @ our church today. I was going to interdues myself, but i didn't get the chance to ,srry! But i had a black shirt, and some jean kapris,and i had a ponie tail! I don't know if you saw me!
i have decided that (unless i get desperate) my first BF will have to ask ME, not the other way around. ("SO THERE!" she defiantly screams at the doubtful recesses of her rebellious brain)
Hello folks. I'm not huge on updating where not many people care to read or comment, but for those who do or might I will.
Gabe is back from his surgery at Vandy. They straightened out his foot and leg and he will be in a cast for about a month; today a couple of Tenn Titans came in his room and gave him a signed football and asked him to watch their game on Sunday. If you want to know their names, ask me. I can't remember at the moment.
The summer was pretty good--got to visit Kamp, Caitlin Hanchett, Rachel Buchanan, Shannon Blake and all the Jackson and Memphis crew. I also got Breaking Dawn when I was in Memphis, about five minutes after it came out. Amazinggg book. I'm glad Niki Burkeen forced me to read Twilight.
College is keeping me busy. I still need to study a little more with a couple of classes, but so far no fails. Hahaha. I'm on the Dean's List now and I was admitted to the Honors College, so I guess you could say that's a big deal but eh. :)
Next summer I'm going to Great Britain for at least a month to study abroad--prolly for my theatre minor, Lord willing. I'm pretty excited.
I'm only working for the WKU College Heights Herald right now, under the Diversions section. You can see my stuff online always at http://www.wkuherald.com under the diversions section. Or just look on my facebook for the link. I decided just to freelance for the yearbook, the Talisman. It was going to be too much with rehearsals for the musical, VIOLET, coming up at the end of the month till the first week of November.
I'm wanting to buy a new camera by Friday. As in a journalism worthy camera--I'm willing to bust out $200 at least but hopefully no more than $300 for it since the screen on my Kodak easyshare went out again. I'm ready for something bigger and better that will last me through college and be photojournalism worthy with a quick shutter speed.
My classes are political science - american nat'l gov (PS110)
Honors English 300 - writing in the disciplines
JOUR 323 - News Editing
THEA 155 - Theatre Appreciation, BCOMM 264- Basic Video Production, and then rehearsals, when they start is THEA 306 Musical Theatre ensemble.
So that's 16 credit hours in all, a pretty full load. Somehow I've learned to make time for everything.
Friday is the luau (who knows if I spelled that right!?)mix n mingle honors college dance at LOST RIVER CAVE!!!! Saturday the first WKU home football game vs. Murray State...Good times. (HAHA, Maria.)Sunday night in Nashville at SIX PM IS THE SWITCHFOOT CONCERT!!! YESSSSSSSSSSS. Me and Alana, my dearest Alana, are going. So is Abby O'Leary and Joe I think.
Today Elyse and I went to Barnes and Noble and I invented the Helen Keller conspiracy theory. Ask me about it. Ha.
I think one of my wisdom teeth is coming in wrong so I'm going to get it checked. Looks like I might need a surgery, in my own opinion. But we'll see!
Pretty much every hour and day has something planned--even if I've planned just to spend time with myself for awhile, which is nice because I'm always running or with someone. I always make time for yoga on Thursdays, though. It's finally getting more intense. I always have lunch or dinner with somebody, and I'm making new friends left and right so it's getting harder to keep up with everyone. But then there's the old Tabithaen way of "if they want to hang out with me, really, they can call!"
Tommorrow Sarah Richardson and I are going to finish my film project!! Me and Megan and Sarah worked on it about a week ago and it was hilarious fun. The problem was on Friday when I was gonna finish it I threw up like crazy all morning pretty much. I felt like I had a child. (Not that I have, but you know.)
I'm pretty happy now because I'm doing nearly everything I've always wanted to do. I still have my down days, though.
I tend to be more of a private person these days; I've learned that it's important to keep your thoughts to yourself because so many people are backbiters and two-faced. Yet you have to know when to stand up for yourself.
I'm beginning to make more friends outside of the church, which I feel is important if Christians are going to influence or convert anyone. We have to learn not to stay in our ivory tower.
I miss Sherri alot! I talked with her the other day and now she has unlimited texting. HAHA.
But I'm really happy that most people have stayed here in Bowling Green and gone on to WKU, especially most the kids I grew up with in homeschooling.
I took Gabe to the Shumake's about a week ago, so that was good. Good to be back with the younguns and see my Nathan Lee bff.
I want to see you soon, Andrea! And my dearest cousins, I suppose I'll see you on Saturday...if not, I'll come visit you within a couple of weeks!
My family in Houston is safe, thank God. Unfortunately my favorite bay, Galveston, is demolished. Ugh.
There's this wholesale market that's opened near our house and I bought me and my mom some jewelry...a load of necklace, earring and bracelet sets and earrings alone and stuff--Mom only wanted one pair of earrings, but I got like 2 sets of jewelry and 2 other pairs of earrings in addition to hers and only spent EIGHT BUCKS and seventy five cents. I plan on returning. :)
I wasn't really wanting to vote for McCain and I wasn't too sure about Obama all summer because I just can't support someone who is pro-choice and pro gay marriage...but then after the RNC and hearing Governor Sarah Palin's speech, I have become a proud supporter of Palin...and McCain, who can't raise his arms high because of the abuse he took in Vietnam.
I still won't put a McCain Palin bumpersticker on my car (being rather private still) but I have ordered a "What would Regan Do?" and a "I survived Roe. v. Wade" bumpersticker.
Eventually they'll get here.
By the way, I did visit the Church at Bowling Green and am probably going to return on Sunday. If you want me to dispell any rumors, I can do so.
A word of admonition: all of us in the church of Christ need to learn to really represent Christ and not be so high and mighty about what we believe is right.
I probably won't post for a while again.
I didn't read your whole post because I got tired of going back and forth from left to right lol. I don't know who I'll vote for, even if I'll vote. I don't like what obama supports, but I strongly believe if Mccain is in office we will go into a great depression. Democrats usually have a better economy, Clinton is proof of that being in office for 8 years, and now look at our deposit. But republicans usually have better morals. So I'm probably not voting lol. Oh well, nice first song on your playlist by the way. I hadn't heard that in forever.
