woo for a post. So my life of late has been pure air traffic control. ATC in the purest form. 24/7 of ATC. Wake up at 0400 and ATC until 2400. It's a non-stop battle, a survival of the fittest, a constant struggle to keep your head above water and not give in to the icy depths of defeat and failure that unfortunatly more than 75% of my colleagues will inevitably succome to. Only about 25% of everyone that tries ATC in the Air Force ever make it out of training as an air traffic controller. The good news however is that I have managed to stay afloat... barely. It is a litteral 24/7 battle to keep up with everything they are throwing at me. I litterally do nothing but eat, sleep and breath ATC right now. I havnt made lower than a 95 on any of my tests yet despite the fact that we have a third of the number students in my class than we started with. We started with 16 students... we now have 5 students and we are only halfway through training. I've seen grown men crumble and cry behind the radar scope from pressure. I've seen men sent away for psych evaluations because of the stress and pressure ATC has put on their shoulders. I've gone through 2 1/2 months of training so far with about 12 more months to go. :/ This stuff makes you grow up thats for sure. You get to a point were you dont even realize who you are anymore. Constantly moving forward with my eyes ever vigalantly scanning the horrizon... the way of a warrior. If you never move forward or progress you are then immobile and stagnant and provide this society of ours with no use whatsoever. You are simply a parrasite whose enitire goal in this life is simply to exist. uhh, anyway... life is stressful right now but I am definitely looking foward to going back to Texas in a few days for a much needed rest. Tomorrow is my last test in radar sims so please pray for me. Its a big one. Then I'm heading to tower training for the remainder of my time here in Biloxi, MS. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm so tired
I cant wait to see everyone in a few days.
I love you!
I am an American Airman. I am a warrior.
I have answered my nation’s call.
I am an American Airman.
My mission is to fly, fight, and win.
I am faithful to a proud heritage,
A tradition of honor,
And a legacy of valor.
I am an American Airman,
Guardian of freedom and justice,
My nation’s sword and shield,
Its sentry and avenger.
I defend my country with my life.
I am an American Airman:
Wingman, Leader, Warrior.
I will never leave an airman behind,
I will never falter,
And I will not fail.
I'm feeling pretty random and good oh and random today. I also feel light today. Light as in like a feather. I'm being serious about that though. I really do. Its hard to explain.. moving on.
In other news, if you havn't seen the video 'cornbread samurai' then you need to. No really, you need to. It gives me the giggles everytime I watch it. WARNING it does have a single wordydird in it though. But really it is a must see. hmm, what else..
oh, I seem to be remembering a lot of dreams lately. Dreams are so cool. When you are in them you really have no idea that it isnt reality. Therefore the emotions you experience and the things that happen to you actually do happen to you but only in a realistic "what if". My dreams of late...
...cowboys and indians set in a modern west. it was interesting. I now can say I've been shot by an arrow. By an indian.
...a halfdead zombi-like world where they chase you with knives and cars. I didnt have the key to my car but was somehow still able to drive by shifting into a gear that I have never seen before. Something like "afterburner" or something. It didnt even make sence to me in the dream.
...I just figured out how to levitate. Yeah, its much cooler than it sounds. It was a whole mess of fun floating around 4 feet off the ground indian style. I did it indian style because I would loose my balance if I tried standing up.
Well, that's about it I guess. GO! watch "Cornbread Samurai". Other than that I leave for basic in about 15 days so I'm getting pretty excited.
lightas a feather is something that i have never been able to say. maybe light as an anvil, but never a feather.
i don't remember most of my dreams and the peices of the ones i do remember are disturbing at best. the cool thing is when you are lucent and have complete control of the dream.
08/15/08 12:03min
08/16/08 11:37min
08/17/08 11:32min
08/18/08 11:13min
08/19/08 11:21min
09/20/08 rest
09/21/08 11:24min ..today huuurt
08/22/08 I seem to be getting worse so I'm going to take few days off to recoup..
GOAL: 8:05min
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