yea i know i havent posted in a while. Thats cuz i got a myspace. They are very addicting. Well sad part is i cant get on for the rest of the year cuz ive made some bad choices and I am dealing with the consequences.
I am now wondering if it is not a good idea to post all this that im about to write, but oh well.
I am asking you all to pray for me. Like I said I have made really bad choices latley and those sins have become public. I have lied, and have been a hypocrite, and I have set a very bad example for those who see me. I am ashamed, and I realize that there is no excuse for my sins. I am going forward to ask for forgiveness in church tonight, and I have also talked to God and begged him to forgive me.
I know I cannot do this by myself, and I know that in he bible somewhere it says that many prayers avail much (or something like that) and I ask for as many prayers as possible. I sit here and think back to the person I was at camp last summer. I was never worried about anything, because I was so sure of my faith and I knew that no matter what happend, God would take care of me. That was the happiest I can remember myself being in my whole life. I am not that person anymore... I want to change and be the old Savannah again. I want to be someone to look up to. But im not.
I am going to try. I know it wont happen overnight, but I will try very hard. Please pray for me...I love you all
Well, recognition is the first part. Asking for forgiveness is the 2nd, so you are well on your way to making a new start. We all have to do it as long as we live. I always tho't that as we get older, it would get easier, and in some ways it does...because we become stronger in the areas we hardest at. But, as we grow, and learn more, we continue to open our eyes and see deeper into ourselves. You are at a tough age, so you have to be even tougher in your battle. But please realize that God's grace is with you an that is a wonderful blessing. I will add you to my prayer list. Keep trying tho'. It is definitely worth the battle!
***Correction...we become stronger in those areas where we conquer our past battles. Going forward helps others to intercede and hold you accountable for the commitment you are making to begin a new fight! May our Lord continue to bless you!
I'm proud of you, Savannah, for recognizing your faults. I could say I've BTDT when I was your age too. What matters now is where you go from here. Forgiveness is an amazing gift. You start over and move on. You're a strong girl and I know you can do it. Going forward is a very difficult and humbling thing to do. You will undoubtedly feel a lump in your stomach and throat throughout services tonight, but I promise you that you will feel such a relief to have your brothers and sisters in Christ greet you with open arms. Stay strong, Savannah. We love you.
You're definitely on the right track. You know that anytime you need to talk to me, my phone is always on. Literally you can call me anytime night or day. And you said it yourself, change doesn't come over night, it's a process, it's going to take a lot of work, and a lot of heartache, but you'll get there if you just perservere. Just remember not to shut out the Christians in your life, becuase we're here to help you, and we all love you and want to see you happy. remember to keep your chin up kiddo.
You are my love, sweet girl. You are going to be fine, I promise. You have to understand how much you are loved. No one loves you as much as I do; maybe your mom, but I doubt it. Always look above for strength. You are an amazing person.
I beleive that I have possibly gained around 10 pounds today. Oh well. Ill just fast for the rest of the week. lol. My life has been a mix of so many emotions latley...Thers not really one title I could put to how I am. I am not in dire straights or anything, so dont worry.
I am reading the most an=mazing series of books I have ever dreamed of reading. The Twilight series consist of four books that are all about 2.5 in thick. I started about three weeks ago and am on the third book. I get so into this story, I find myself desperatley wishing that I was the main character, Bella. You know how some books are kinda boring in the begining, and then gradually get better? THESE BOOKS ARE AMAZING FROM START TO FINISH!!!!!! I will read these books over and over and over.
I am still doing well in school. I have some very good friends in Cedar Key. I am positivly in love with my school. I love my friends and I wish that I lived in Cedar Key, just so that I could hang out with my friends more often. I am thankful that the Lord has blessed my life this way. Last year at this time, I never would have dreamed of loving school or even friends at school like I do now.
I guess I have to say something dont I? Sadly, I was not able to convert or even change Adam at all. As much as I tried, I discovered that he pulled me away from the Lord when I tried to pull him to the Lord. I understand that this happens often. Its very unfortunate....and I would be lying if I said I wont miss him dearly, but that chapter of my life is over.
Right now I am really wanting to focus on family. I have been feeling kinda distant from my family latley...and I think thats because of this recent fender bender with Adam. That makes me feel really bad, but things happen. So I am really really trying to ween myself off my dominant social life a little.
I really cant think of anything else right now...ummmm ily guys
im really sorry about Adam. I know, me and my mom both agreed that the movie was terrible compared to the book. Nothing could measure up to the book. my cousin, Amanda, on the other hand thought it was the best movie in the world. sad to say i disagree.
I dont know if you feel this way, but it sounds like you are/did handle your situation with Adam in a very mature way. A lot of girls don't do that, but it sounds like you've got your priority's straight. That's a really good thing.
Thanks 4 remindin me!! lol..... UR IN TOWN!!! lol..... Me and Cadie wanna come over 2morrow so we can c each other b4 ya'll leave! We will call u!(but not with my phone, cuz im STILL grounded!) lol.... LOVE YOU ~court~
Hey Red! Unfortunately, lots of times it's easier for the Devil to work through others than it is for us to let the LORD work through us. You tried with Adam, and this time the devil won. It's really good that you noticed that early, though. You've got to keep trying. There are plenty of great Christian men out there just waiting for you to give them the time of day! And they will be SOOO lucky! You are a great catch! Love you girlie!!!
Hey girlie! Did you get your braces off yet? I want to seeeeee! When are you coming back here? I want to come up there and visit! So I can see you and you know, some other people. ;)
hey vanna! sorry to hear about Adam. i think the same thing kinda happened to me with Loren too. it really makes you realize in the end how string you are compared to what you think. the beakup was a humbling experience for me. well i hope things get better for you. just keep praying and trusting our
tonight is the night of our wonderous girlz night.....were at alyssas house and crista is here and we are doing nothing except talking about alllll of our many boyfriends.....ha ha, Brandon has a cute one over at the house, very cute...I think crista is gong insane.....shes commenting on Brandons cuteness and me and Alyssa are tending to our overworked gagging reflexes....Ha Ha but im sure no one cares. I still have a boyfriend...A month and a weeek now. Im happy. Mom is apparently doing ok. Ha Ha need to go......were burning mailboxes.....jk
I agree. I actually watched it last night for the first time and thought it was a parody; some sort of comedy, and sadly realized they were all taking themselves very seriously.
So is Adam still a dude w/ your digits? Happy Birthday!!! Sweet 16, right????? I can't believe it!!!!!!!! I remember when you were still in your mommies tummy and I remember going to your baby shower!! Isn't that weird!!! BTW, I use to feed, diaper, and clothe you....and take naps w/ you! It's true!!! MUAH!!!!!!!!
happy birthday vanna! (well i dont know if its the exact day but i know its close!) how time has flown by! when i first met uncle jason you were only 4. wow. hope its a good day! love you bunches!
I have been soooo busy lately. I have been getting tutored in geometry almost every day after school. Ive been working on weekends. My room was a horrrible wreck, so I cleaned it yesterday. Thank goodness I finally got some laundry done or I would have had to start wearing Flint's underware. I have made so many friends. I do have a boyfriend, his name is Adam and he is very sweet. He has long blonde hair though and Daddy isnt happy about guys having long hair. So Adam is getting it cut. My family is doing good right now. Thats about all. Yall have a good weekend.
OK ill called you over that weekend and someone said you were grounded! so when you get un-grounded we need to talk about our birthday party! (if u still want to do one!) ill call u later though in case u dont get this message...
im so glad you're getting some help in geometry and even more glad that you arent wearing flints underwear! where did you meet adam? im studying for a lab test i have in anatomy on monday and making mental notes of things my kids say they want for christmas. i cant believe its right around the corner. blakes birthday is next month and laurens is right after christmas. yikes.
Wow...a boyfriend? Is he from school? i'm so glad you've made friends and that you're happy...and that you're not sitting there right now in your brothers tightie-whities!!! :)
well you have to go to photobucket.com get an account then post yer pics... then you go to create a new blog thing and post the weblink and it will show up as a picture.
haha it alright... man that horrible!! well i think im having a birthday on november 8?? saturday i think and probably going to go bowling on the 7th. so maybe you can come! :/ but i think thats the plan...hopefully everything will work out! tell me if you raise your grade!
