This morning, I hear a door open and assumed it was Jack's bedroom door, so I came to Carole and Billy's door and wished him a good morning. He looked at me and asked me, "LaLa, why you have two faces?" I knew he was referring to my face last night when he went to bed when I had make-up on and then my "morning" face without the makeup applied. I explained this to him and he said, "Well, go put your makeup on!"

What a sweetheart! At least he'll tell me the truth.

So as most of you know Carole and Billy are on a 2 week trip with Ferrell Jenkins to Greece and Turkey. Well, with the help of Carole's parent's Grandma Joy and Papa Jim, we have the kids. This has been a fun adventure. Whenever I'm around, it is all about me! They want to be with me, go with me, talk to me, me go with them anywhere and everywhere (including the restroom which they can do by themselves) and basically, it is all about ME!

Now I as I find this flattering, I now know how mom's feel, when you can't even go to the bathroom by yourself. Jack likes to contradict EVERYTHING you say and Lilly is quiet independent when she puts her mind to it, but also, lives with her head in the clouds.l I let her alone for about 10 minutes tonight to finish cleaning her room and then she was to change into her pajamas, after this time, NOTHING was done and she was off in another room doing something else. I really do have to baby-sit her and make sure she goes from task to task, but then when she does homework, she can remember all the details about the whole story she reads. GO FIGURE?????

Now the adventures with Grandma Joy and Papa Jim are another story for another day. We'll just leave it at that.

Another good thing about being here is I go to bed around 10PM, except for right now since I'm trying to get this entry done. I like getting this extra sleep, but the additional 15 minutes in my morning commute is not as much fun.

Well, as I type, I'm afraid that Jack-A-Boo is still up and has gotten out of bed, and I was just bragging on him! Better go get him in bed so he will eventually go to sleep. More stories later.

I FINALLY got a computer with Billy's help! This was my Christmas gift to me thanks to my dad's money. I'm just so excited to finally have something all my own. Now I get to save for a new couch.

If only you could see the Big Ugly, as Amy calls it, you would agree that it is time for a new couch. I'm trying to do things on my own now that my life is different than I ever imagined it would be.

I am also beginning to look for a new place of my own so that I can get out of this Cracker Jack box known as an apartment. I would like to upgrade from 400 square feet to something like 1000 square feet. I'm getting excited looking for something else that is my own.

I'm trying to focus on the positive....it is a daily battle...but if not for some of my friends I would never have made it thru. I must name Carole, Amy and Rebekah. They are and will continue to be my salvation as I move on with my life.

Thank you God for them!!!!!! I am blessed!!!!!

OK, so my life is not that exciting, but here's a new post for some of you out there!

I've changed jobs since my last entry. I went back to work for Dr. Brian Beitel. He is a pediatric dentist that I worked for back in 1997-1999. I'm happy to be back "home". Always some interesting things when it involves kids..... I'll just leave it at that.

Well, my lunch hour is almost up, so maybe more later...

OK, so it has been a while since I've made an entry and of course my life has been in upheaval again! As he thought that my wedding was cancelled about 1 1/2 ago (it's only been 8 months), the drama is finally coming to an end. We have ended our relationship after 4 1/2 yrs. It feels like I'm mourning the death of a friend again, but at least this time I'm better equipped to handle it.

I know that things happen for a reason, but I wonder why I had to waste that long waiting for something that would never happen. But wait, I do know, he gave me promises and promises and more promises. I don't know if any of you have watched The Bachelor, but Deonna is me and Brad is Jonathan. Everything he said to her I could completely hear where he was coming from. Everything she said to him on the "After the Rose Ceremony", are the things that I said or thought to say to Jonathan. I felt like I was reliving my life on TV.

Now I look to a new beginning. I've got to totally reinvent my life and figure out what I want to do next. I'm looking for a job, and trying to think of saving money for a place of my own someday and beginning to prepare to support myself for the long haul. I look to a new beginning.