Back in the Hospital

Last night after several days of excruciating, wall-climbing pain, Jim was admitted to the hospital. He received his pain meds three different times in a short period, and they finally had to sedate him. He slept but woke again this morning still in pain and was again given something to keep him "drugged." They were awaiting a pain management team when I spoke last to my dad.

Here's what I know from today:

Jim was diagnosed with follicular cell Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma in June 2009. After chemotherapy, in September 2009 his physicians claimed he was in remission. But by November, he was still having problems so they began chemo again. That has been going on until they took a biopsy of the tumor in his back just last week.

The results of the biopsy indicate that he has two types of cancer that now includes large cell Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma in addition to the previous diagnosis. The body scans now indicate that Jim has a tumor the size of a cantaloupe in his back in the pelvic region that is affecting his left leg. It is too massive for surgery. It is also the cause of his pain. He remains wheelchair bound for mobility. In addition, he has two tumors in his head: one on the chin/jawbone that protrudes about 1-1/2 inches and another that now appears at the base of his skull. He speaks with a slur and he is disfigured.

The doctors are beginning a chemotherapy regimen today that is new in cancer treatment and includes a very expensive prescription drug, the name of which I can't recall. It will be given by IV for two days and orally 14 days thereafter. They say it has a 66% chance of improving his condition, but as my sister says, it will likely just change the time frame remaining for Jim from days/weeks to a few months. But with the kind of pain he is experiencing we all have to wonder if that is a good thing. It is without a doubt that my brother is dying and there is absolutely nothing anyone can do about it. He is in too much pain and only wishes for death to relieve it. The cancer is aggressive and is infiltrating his body faster than it can be treated.

I am planning a trip to Mississippi as soon as Jim is released from the hospital, which won't happen until they can get the pain managed. I'm hoping for early-mid week next week. Legal matters need settled. End-of-life decisions need to be made. Besides, it's where my heart is anyway.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.

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The Hasley Family: Mom, Debbie, Jimmy, Daddy, Me
  • split_rock
    Difficult times, Deidra, but your faith will sustain you. Love you. I'm so glad you can plan to go down to be with him and your parents soon.
    by split_rock at 03/17/10 2:42PM
  • hoose
    I will be praying for all of you.
    by hoose at 03/17/10 2:43PM
  • aleta
    The fact that Jim's final days are filled with excruciating pain breaks my heart for him and his family and you...this is just so difficult to read. I love you, Deidra. God bless.
    by aleta at 03/17/10 2:47PM
  • be_with_me_lord
    I know how hard this can be from my own experiences. Helping someone 'live' longer but they have to be drugged or in severe pain-that is something I have a hard time understanding. I pray all decisions made will be best for everyone. *hugs*
    by be_with_me_lord at 03/17/10 4:14PM
  • lorileigh
    May God hold your brother, you and your family in the palm of his hand during this very difficult time! I'm so sorry you all are suffering.
    by lorileigh at 03/18/10 8:29AM
  • big_bertha_blue
    I'm am so sorry to hear this. My prayers are with him and your family. Thank you for all you do to fight cancer.
    by big_bertha_blue at 03/18/10 8:47AM
  • mimi71
    Praying for the Lord to give you strength and courage during the next phase of this life here. *hugs* I should have the answe to your fundraising question by tonight - I will email immediately!
    by mimi71 at 03/18/10 12:28PM
  • liketohike
    Praying for you and your family and sending love your way.
    by liketohike at 03/18/10 2:07PM
  • mereme
    Once again, I am just so glad that you all are surrounded folks who love you, who God can use to hold you up, pray for you and with you, can just be there to help out with the little things. It must seem surreal. But we know God is blessing you all in ways we can't see sometimes. Words are so thin sometimes... (((hugs)))
    by mereme at 03/19/10 11:28AM

Two Months -- Really?

The Cleveland Marathon is only two months from today.

Can you believe it?

I’m still amazed that I signed up to run a marathon, but I’m even more amazed that I’m well on my way to running 26.2 miles for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.

We all know WHY I’m running this marathon, don’t we? To raise funds and awareness for The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. They are the ones who fight for cures for blood cancers. This is the type of cancer that my brother has RIGHT NOW and he really is fighting for his life this very day.

It doesn’t matter if you can donate $10, $25, $50, $100 or $1,000. Every donated dollar brings me a step closer to my goal and keeps LLS in the fight to help people like my brother. And, it’s tax deductible!

Some of you have already donated. Thank you! I hope you are continuing to stay updated on my progress by reading my Blog. We’re all in this together!
  • aleta
    Time is a-flyin'!
    by aleta at 03/16/10 11:23AM
  • rockymtnslover
    I know! I just hope I can be flying down the course. lol!
    by rockymtnslover at 03/16/10 11:36AM
  • cdawg
    that's awesome! the only marathon i've ever been in is a scary movie marathon they had on amc tv a few years back for halloween ;)
    by cdawg at 03/16/10 2:01PM
  • friedaj
    So how far are you running now?
    by friedaj at 03/16/10 5:03PM
  • rockymtnslover
    lol!
    by rockymtnslover at 03/16/10 8:01PM
  • rockymtnslover
    At this weekend's group run, I will run 15 miles.
    by rockymtnslover at 03/16/10 8:01PM

Cut-A-Thon

I went to a fund-raising event today hosted by Dino Palmieri Salon. It was called a Cut-A-Thon. Stylists donated 100% of their time, services and tips to The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. I got to meet fellow cancer survivors and hear stories told by families of those whose relatives died from cancer. It was a healing day of remembering and honoring.

It was amazing to me how perfect strangers, male or female, could shed tears together because of the common bond of cancer. This proves to me that cancer will never win. I believe. Do you?

Please consider making a donation through my LLS Web Page.
  • funsahm
    That sounds super cool.
    by funsahm at 03/14/10 11:51PM
  • cdawg
    i believe!!!
    by cdawg at 03/15/10 8:36AM

On a Brighter Note

Daylight Savings Time begins next Sunday, March 14!
  • aleta
    Oh, wow! I TOTALLY forgot about that!
    by aleta at 03/06/10 8:13PM
  • be_with_me_lord
    Really? I do see that now on my calender :D
    by be_with_me_lord at 03/07/10 1:37AM
  • split_rock
    One of our elderly members asked this morning if you got "extra credit" for arriving at the building for Bible study twice today. I asked what she meant. Apparently her husband realized about 8 a.m. that it was really 9 a.m. and rushed them out of the house -- only to find out he was a week early!
    by split_rock at 03/07/10 1:49PM

Bad Business

I hate it when a website steals your email contacts and then sends Junk mail to them with an invitation in your name to join their website. Sorry, everybody.
  • friedaj
    Always the prankster. LOL
    by friedaj at 03/06/10 4:11PM
  • hoose
    That just happened to me a couple of weeks ago. It appeared that I was trying to sell Viagra. I wasn't. Of course. :-)
    by hoose at 03/06/10 4:21PM
  • rockymtnslover
    by rockymtnslover at 03/06/10 6:00PM